not my mom...my mother

i cant believe i trusted u again...but no more. you say you love me, you say you care but those are just words. words from you. A liar. A fibber. A perjurer. i always come last on your agenda. you never loved me. you would rather sniff that line than do anything with me. when i was little you would always tell me you would come and pick me up, and EVERYTIME i believed you. i guess i was a dumb little kid because everybody told me that you would lie. you never gave me presents for my birthday or christmas but the thing that hurt the worst was you werent there at all. i hated you! i never wanted to call you mom and why should i have? you were never a mom to me. then for the first time i started trusting you again. but you FUCKED that up. dont tell me your going to visit me before you move to L.A. and then flake on me to go do a line with your boyfriend. i will never trust you ever again. you fucked my life up but theres one thing i will thank you for. for giving me to my dad, my real dad, even though he is not my father. he man-ed up and raised me, knowing i wasnt his. And all of this is why you will only be a mother to me...